After a few days of running around, I finally got to stay home tonight! I sound like a grandma I know, but seriously, we've been out EVERY night trying to meet people before we leave.
Tonight, the kids from Aussie came to stay over. We had an AMAZING Korean BBQ. So nice. And so full.
Now as I check my email, they're all lying on the mattresses in front of the TV watching 40 Year Old Virgin. Either asleep or quickly on their way there. Even the brother-in-law is lying half asleep on the floor. Everyone is satisfied and full. SUCCESS.
In all the excitement, no one remembered to take any pictures. LOL.

Tomorrow, we're going to Kak Farah's place for lunch - Kak Maya will be there TOO! - then dinner at Auntie Azizah's. Being fed by a famous restauranteur - very excited! Will try my hardest to take picturesss! Will post a couple on here, and the rest on facebook! :)

Hope everyone had an amazing Christmas Eve & Day! Had dinner with Aunt Sally & Stacy last night at Secret Kitchen. An intimate dinner. Loved it.

Just got back from Bali. A beautiful beautiful place with the most amazing food in the world. We stayed at a hotel just across the road from Kuta Beach, a different setting to the first time we went years ago. It was simply gorgeous. There's no other way to describe it. The weather was warm during the day but the breeze in the morning and at night by the pool made up for all of it.
The food was sooo scrumptious. So spicy that your body screams in pain but it's so delicious you just can't stop.

I of course was unable to go surfing or swimming for all of the holiday. GRR. Always happens when we go for a beach holiday. But it's okay, because then there would be no one to take pictures. So I was the official camera man for the holiday. Which is the reason there aren't very many pictures of myself -_-

The people were so friendly it made me want to cry at times. They have such an optimistic way about themselves even in times of hardship. They're always smiling and so unbelievably polite and loving. A special thanks to Nardi for showing us the loveliest time and to his family who were so sweet.

All in all, an incredible holiday and a fantastic way to celebrate our 3 day wedding fiasco that we pulled off without a hitch. Everything went so smoothly. If I were to say there wasn't any panic, I'd be lying, but every obstacle thrown our way we beat down with a large bat.

To everyone who attended the wedding events, a huge thank you. We appreciate every single person that came to celebrate with us. A very very special thanks to the families, on Mum & Dad's sides. We really couldn't have done it without you and frankly, it wouldn't have been as fun.

A HUMUNGOUS thank you to Fatimah and her crew - I can honestly say NOTHING would have happened the way it did if it weren't for your professionalism, your caring manner and your attention to detail and to the bride & groom. We'll definitely look you up in the future and keep in touch until then.

Finally, a GIGANTIC CONGRATULATIONS to the newly married couple - Arfian Abu & Radiah Rizal - I wish you all the love, happiness, rolling on the floor laughter & an infinite number joyfully married years. I love you both YAARRR :)



Dubai in 8 days :)

I've been home for about a week now. And it's been incredible.
The house is a little empty, Mum & Ramizah are back in Singapore, so Dad & I are bonding. Which has been nice. I've had to keep myself busy during the day though. Being a house-daughter is tiring.

So far...

- the weather has been AMAYZING. There is no other way to describe it except PERFECTION. It gets hot during the day but bearable. And at night... *sigh*.
- spent ALOT of time with Shal, chilling & catching up BIG TIME. She's awesome. Always always always able to cheer me up.
- Warren came back last night. Just got home from some much needed bondage. Best company tonight. Haven't laughed so hard in AGES. Well worth the craziness of the daytime. And bebeh, I'm no longer angry at you. Well I was never angry, just really pissed and frustrated. But you came and it was hard to stay angry innit.
- having the car at my disposal is AWESOME. But I do miss the mumeh. Home is not the same. Very strange.
- barely taken any photos. FAIL.
- haven't gone to the beach. Double FAIL.
- has not had shawarma! EPIC FAIL.

So far, that's what's been going on. Leave for Singapore in a few days to start wedding madness! WOOTS.
And I get to see uni people!! ROSAAAA 2 WEEKS!

ONE MORE PAPER!
I really want to get this over and done with. It's screwing with my mind.
Too much energy spent. The heat is making me tired. The studying is making me tired. The 500 thoughts running through my mind are making me tired. Good God.

Power through! POWER THROUGH.

*sigh*

This time tomorrow. WOOTS! Uber excited! But need to do SOOO many things before the Woot-ing.

THE HEAT IS DEATHLY.

The weather is pms-ing. It's so hot during the day it's unbelievable. It's only 35 degrees but it feels like the middle of summer in Dubai. You don't feel like doing anything at all. Just wanting to lie on a bed of ice. *sigh*

And then at night, it gets nice and chilly. PMS MUCH MELBOURNE?!

Can't wait for the amazing weather in Dubai.

Al-Hassan Al-Shaibani.

What does one really know about Al Hassan?
Tis a complex yet simple question.

He is a what-you-see-is-what-you-get kinda person. But at the same time, you also experience a 'he-did-not-just-say-that' reaction. And most of the time, I have the latter reaction to many things he says and does. BUT that's a good thing.

The first time I met him, he was by far THE shy-est boy I had ever met. Probably shy-er because he was in our house for the first time. Shat yourself much that day?
After many trips to DFC from DIS, he loosened up [teehee] and thats when his true colours shone through. He's such a sweet and caring homosapien with such wit and sarcasm that all you can think is, can life get any better than this? Because of that thought, we are now a betrothed couple. Now, RamRam, I know you're shocked and all, but you know the LURRVEE is just too strong.

While I was thinking of what to write and chatting to friends, this is what my future husband thought appropriate to message: "I thought you were proper menstruating all over that blog with emotions and stuff".

I was going to write up a whole bunch of quotes from our unbelievably entertaining conversations, but that would be going against our ONE VERY IMPORTANT rule, wouldn't it honey? ;)

All jokes aside, I'm quite happy that he is in my life. All thanks to DIS and RamRam. He has kept me quite entertained and even at this early stage in our fr-elation-ship, he has such a charming way about him that I feel like I can trust him with anything. Not very many people who get there that fast. I'm proud of you LUVERR.

For a moment, we both panicked because we thought we didn't have any pictures together...BUT! we fouuunddd oneeee! And on such an important day in his life!


Al Hassan, now you're on my blog, in fact you have your very own post. That should keep you happy for a couple weeks.

p.s. sorry for the 55min wait, you uber cool mammal!

I stayed up last night, not because I wanted to, but because I couldn't sleep.
Maybe it was the added stress of what I had just found out.
Sleeping pills are too addictive, so I'm not planning on going down that road. EVER.
Tea makes me want to get up and pee 5 times in the middle of the night.
Calming music freaks me out when I'm trying to sleep - it makes me feel like I'm in a horror movie and any minute, the music will change and someone will attempt to kill me. (REALLY not the best way to get to sleep)

Best way to sleep?
To figure all my shit out BEFORE bedtime. Now the only problem with that is...what happens when the shit happens at bedtime. Then what? *sigh*

I'm finally well.
Spent last night at Kak Ina's place to celebrate her turning a year older. Had pancakes this morning. Came home. Studied. Went to Coles. Got groceries. Now writing on blog. Productive? Not quite. LOL.

It's been a strange few days. Nothing strange has really happened. But I'm not feeling like myself. Something feels weird. Not good weird. I don't know what it is. I wish Aisha was here to talk this out with me. Figure out what the hell is wrong. Don't want to whine to anyone here, everyone has exams. Whining wouldn't be on top of the list of things to entertain.

Visit from home in a couple of days. Can't wait for that. Can't wait for the cuddles and the bitching. Need to study ass off tomorrow and the next day so can slack abit on the weekend.

Oh. Also. Had chocolate mud cake with ice-cream last night. Yum.

It's that time of year again. AWESOME.
And to start it all off, my body decided to go into shutdown mode and adopt a little pet called the viral infection. So I'm finally starting to feel a little better, halfway through my anitbiotics. I've already finished a whole box of neurophen. Hmm.

Anyhows, just a quickie.
Went to Dubai during my spring break. For about a week or so. It was probably the best spring break ever. So many things happened in the time I was back. Got to spend Raya with the whole family for the last time, because in a couple of months, we will have a new addition to the family. Excitementtt! E.B. had his first performance, an opening. It was such an unforgettble night. The company, the performance, EVERYTHING. Of course the ride back home at the end of the night was a major plus =D

Now begins the countdown to the first exam. And soon after that, the countdown to the last exam and my trip back to Dubai. Bonding time with my Dad for 2 weeks. Then we jet off to Singapore to start what I believe is going to be the most memorable time in Singapore EVER.

If only the next few weeks could go by with a little more ease .... but I also wish it could go by a little slower... God only knows we could all use it.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY EMILY "MEI LI" QUAK!

I hope you had an amazing day & you enjoyed your midnight surprise and the dinner.
Always think positive like you tell me to, always look to the future. Don't dwell on the past.
Remember, Laws of Attraction :p
Thank you for being there for me when I need you, all these years we've known each other.
For doing psycho things when I ask, for sitting and doing nothing, for layan-ing, teman-ing me in everything.
May your new year bring you joy, laughter, cuddles, hugs, kisses, many many more cupcakes, desserts, colourful stationary, a filofax and most of all, LOVE.

Love isn't as strong as everybody says.
It doesn't affect the decisions people make like we see in movies.
Sometimes love isn't enough.

Or well, it isn't for some people.

And the rest, well they suffer.

Everyday Lessons!

So here are a some things I've learnt in the past month: -
1. Moving SUCKS!
2. Putting together furniture [even an office chair] ALWAYS goes a lot better when someone helps.
3. Gloves are VERY useful in the winter [Emily]
4. You CAN still break something playing touch rugby. LOL. Even if it's just a finger.
5. Time differences SUCK even more than I previously thought.
6. Girlfriends read EVERYTHING. Learning to be more careful and discreet.
7. If I get tonsilitis one more time in the next 4 months, out they come :S
8. Always have a backup in case your Creative Zen [or similiar] go wonky on the train ride to uni.

9. Emily is DAMN perasan sometimes, but we love her anyway. Case & Point:

raudhah says:

you are a genius!

em says:

LOL i know i know don't have to keep reminding me

10. ALWAYS ALWAYS ensure that one has transferred money into one's account before furniture-buying.
11. The brighter the morning, the HIGHER the risk of rain in the day. [Learnt only after being drenched twice]
12. Chloe is ALWAYS hungry. And constantly pee-ing. But also CUTE!
13. Friends are for stealing movies and tv series' off of! SUCH an advantage.
14. Blogging is for when I'm TRULY bored.

I hope everyone has had a truly educational month =D

Cold All Over Again

Back in Melbourne once again. And of course coming from the freaking HOT city that is Dubai, I'm FREEZING. Not so much when I'm inside but jeez, when I step outside, I feel like my nose is about to fall off. To make things MUCH better, I went up to Mount Buller with the auntie, uncle & cousins. And it was -2 degrees. So much snow everywhere. About 10 minutes after we got to the top, it started to snow!! DO YOU KNOW EXCITED I WAS!!!!! Sure, I've been up in the snow a few times, but I've never been there when it was actually snowing!

Half an hour later, my excitement for snow had died. Because of one thing = WIND. When wind and snow mix, it feels like a million little tiny bullets are shooting at your face. It hurts ok. I got tiny little scratches on my cheek and on my hand [i have no clue how i got the one on my hand since I had gloves on, but DEF a snow cut]. AND YES, snowflakes are able to inflict cuts and pain upon people. First hand experience here. Also, the entire time, my face felt a bit like it had botox injected all over it. Well, what I think botox probably feels like. Then once you go inside, your cheeks and face start to thaw...AND TINGLE. Not pleasant tingling, tingling thats on the verge of pain.

Kak Ina & I

BUT all in all, AN AMAZING WEEKEND. The best way to adapt myself back to the cold methinks. LOL.

13/14th

The past couple of days have been just a dream.
Today it's Musa's birthday. The 14th of May. Today he turns a year older. But for us, his birthday celebration started last night. We decided since today was a day that he should spend with friends, we would have dinner last night.

So off we went to Atlantis. I treated him to dinner since it was after all his birthday. We both got nice and dressed up, and for the first time I successfully curled my own hair (be proud em, be proud). On the way, I blindfolded him, with his own tie because I forgot the blindfold. When we got onto Palm Jumeirah, he took the blindfold off and it took him about 5 mins to realize where we were, and got really excited. Anyway, we had an amazing dinner. Stuffed. I could barely move after that. The whole time we were eating we just had so much fun. And I couldn't stop thinking how lucky I was.

Two hours and ALOT of food later, we met up with a few people to celebrate something else. Not the point of this post of course. And totally confidential. LOL. At midnight, he turned a year older. Everyone sang for him. And he got a few kisses from me. We were in public. Not very big PDA people. Just after midnight I drove him to a friend's place to stay over.

This morning we met up, had breakfast with Ramizah, Sandra and Al Hassan (whose birthday it also was today! ). Mugg & Bean. AMAZING breakfast. Amazing and HUGE. But it was nice. The birthday boys got a slice of cheescake and we all stuffed their faces.

The rest of the day him & I just spent together. We were meant to go to the beach with everyone else, but plans got changed. And he was already at my place, we both crashed on the couches downstairs. My mum thought we'd both died coz we were so silent. Then he went home.

Baby, I hope you enjoyed yesterday & today. I know at least you were full ALL THE TIME :P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. May Allah grant you all your wishes and bless you always.
And can I just say, thank you for being the most amazing guy I've ever met. Patient. Loving. Cuddly!

I love you, Musa George Guthrie Aballe Haxton Jr. xxx

May Wishes

So much has happened in the past few weeks. Good mostly. The couple weird/mind fuck moments. But other than that. GOOD :D

So we've got the month of May now. Bout halfway. First and foremost:
This time last year we'd just started talking after a month of MIA-ness. And we were closer then ever. But this day had to be spent with both of us on either side of the world. This year however, I got to sit in the sweltering heat in a dress, heat so hot I was sweating at the back of my knees. Not good sweating people. BAD sweating. But we all sucked it up. I got to spend the whole day and night with this special person. And the whole of the next day. In a KFC, his car, on highways, many many petrol stations and a water theme park! But it was all worth it. Because this day only comes around once in this boy/man's life. And this is day is the day he turns...wait for it...24! LOL. You've been there every step of the past year and a half we've known each other. Met in the most random of circumstances, fought, screamed, laughed - SHITLOADS -, shisha-ed, huggie-d, session-ed. We've done it all haven't we hun? This is all a week overdue, but in my defense I spent the first two days of the new year with you. SOOO...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IBRAHIM JABER ISMAIL AL SAFFAR!!
(a.k.a E.B, Fling Poop, The FLAME, Sex Symbol)

Also, the rest of this month holds many many more important birthdays:
Aisyah
Bik Purah
Jagna (sorry I missed the dinner!)
Musa
Duncan (a.k.a my hot white chick! glad I got to at least spend last year with you in Perth)
Abg Etam
Abg Arf
Elaine
Tricia
So to all of you, HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated & in advance)

P.S. Finally got to Dubai Mall today. Too big, too crowded, shitty carpark design, too branded, too confusing. X-ed for now. Or maybe just X-ed on Friday nights.

A little rant

So I'm sitting at my table praying and hoping my two little angels wont die. I've just changed most of their water, done all by the book. So now it's all just a waiting game. Every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check on them. Every time I walk into my room I check on them. A little taste of what having my own children would be like?

But it's good. Taking care of them is taking my mind of other things that I've been fretting about the past month or so. Although I sleep fine, I still wake up with a thousand questions and thoughts in my mind. And it really feels like I haven't slept at all. Fear and worry have pretty much taken up as much space as they can find up there. I keep trying to push them out, I do. But to no avail. This then leads to frustration. And just when I think frustration is something I can live with, the sadness and reality seep back in. Back to square one.

I apologise to my friends who have been getting more and more frustrated with my disappearance and hermit-ness. But its the kind of situation where you really don't know who to ask help from or to seek comfort in. Those who already know are too far away to console and comfort. Sure, the internet helps but a hug from a friend can never be replaced. I'm not ignoring you guys. I'm just trying to figure things out and I know I should be reaching out to you, but I dont know how. For many reasons. I miss you guys to bits! I really do.

We always say that we'd rather know than not. And in this situation I would be DAMN pissed off if I didnt know, but at the same time having the knowledge of the inevitable hurts. Alot. They always say pain makes you stronger. Let's see how this works out then...

Hmm..

Back from the trip. Too lazy to upload pics. Also too tired. Barely slept last night, was taking care of the boyfie. Wasn't well. But we both knocked out about 4 am in the morning, only to be woken up a few hours later by the Ramizah. Anyway, someone sent me this site, and because of the boredom, laziness and fatigue, I decided to do it. Here are the results:

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Shall upload pictures when well rested. Might be about a week though, because I start work tomorrow. Funness.

Road Trip

So today, we're going on a roadtrip. The man and I are going with Ramizah's friends. A kinda belated birthday celebration for Anissa. To Umm Al Quwain. Staying overnight at a chalet. Really didn't think the parents would be ok with it, but they were convinced at the end. So yay! ROAD TRIP! It's about 10ish people. So it should be fun!! Nothing planned when we get there really, just to chill. I was quite surprised they asked me to come along, I thought Ramizah would've wanted time alone with her friends. But they're all cool, so I was quite happy to accept the invite. And it's a good thing this trip. Gets me away from all the craziness even if its just for a day. Lets me regroup my thoughts and simply enjoy a day and a night with the sister!

Post one when I get back.
xxx

A silver lining

Went to the beach today. With the family and Kak Rayne & co. Crap loads of fun. Went for a ride on the swings, haven't done that in a while. Today was probably the first chilled out day by the beach I've had. Made me quite happy.

The past few weeks, I've been going through abit of an emotional rollercoaster. I've learned alot even though the whole experience isn't something I'd like to repeat. Trust is one of the most important things in a relationship with someone [not just the lovey kind, im talking about any kind of relationship - friendships, family]. When I was younger, trusting someone was the easiest thing on the planet, and one day that I was stripped of that privelage. But over the past few years, I've learned that only by trusting someone can you truly experience a relationship. So I started to trust again. It wasn't easy. Not at all. I though though I had finally succeeded in fully trusting the people around me. And just as I was starting to believe that, all the powers in the world combined and proved me wrong.

The pain I felt when that happened was unbelievable. The pain, the anger, the humiliation. It took me days to even absorb that something like this had happened. To think that someone I considered a close friend could do such a thing. Once I had come to terms with it and thought nothing worse could happen, it did. And THIS was the worst thing that could have happened. I was shocked. Someone I had trusted with every little detail of my life, counted on for so long and for so many things, someone so close to my heart. How could you? You're supposed to protect me just like you protected me from so many other things. Things that I really didn't need protecting from. This, THIS I needed you to protect me. And what did you do? The complete opposite. I've never in my life felt so betrayed.

I've missed all my friends back in Melbourne. The routine of going back is now broken. Everytime I think of them it makes me tear a little. Most of all, I miss Aisha. We may not be able to find a solution to any of this but at least her presence would make me feel tons better.

But I have you, dont I? You're always there for me. Through this psychotic turn of events. When my mood swings go into full gear. You've always been there to hold me, to listen to me go on and on about how idiotic all of this is, how fucked up everything is. You care and love me like nothing I've ever felt before. You make me feel safe. Even when I'm mad at you, I crave you. Just to sit in your arms. To feel for a moment that everything is right in the world. That's what you do. Because I don't think I say it enough, I love you.

I've found a silver lining haven't I?

2009

Before I say anything else...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I cant believe its already 2009. What. The. Crap. I swear it feels like I just graduated last year. In actual fact, that was almost 3 years ago. Gross.

With most new years, I always make resolutions. As most other people, out of the 10 that I make, 2 will come true if I'm lucky. Lol. So this year, my only resolution is to be happier and live life with a smile on my face. So far so good. I don't want anything from last year to repeat. I'm going to look for that silver lining all the time.

Its been 8 days now since 2008 turned a year older. And honestly, I've been quite happy. There have been glitches obviously, but I'm just moving on. Trying not to let those things affect me.
And finally, things are starting to look up. Way up. I haven't gone a minute without a smile on my face the past couple of days. It's all thanks to you.

So here's to a beautiful 2009. May all your wishes come true!
Love you all.