Saturday, March 14, 2009


Back from the trip. Too lazy to upload pics. Also too tired. Barely slept last night, was taking care of the boyfie. Wasn't well. But we both knocked out about 4 am in the morning, only to be woken up a few hours later by the Ramizah. Anyway, someone sent me this site, and because of the boredom, laziness and fatigue, I decided to do it. Here are the results:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Shall upload pictures when well rested. Might be about a week though, because I start work tomorrow. Funness.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Road Trip

So today, we're going on a roadtrip. The man and I are going with Ramizah's friends. A kinda belated birthday celebration for Anissa. To Umm Al Quwain. Staying overnight at a chalet. Really didn't think the parents would be ok with it, but they were convinced at the end. So yay! ROAD TRIP! It's about 10ish people. So it should be fun!! Nothing planned when we get there really, just to chill. I was quite surprised they asked me to come along, I thought Ramizah would've wanted time alone with her friends. But they're all cool, so I was quite happy to accept the invite. And it's a good thing this trip. Gets me away from all the craziness even if its just for a day. Lets me regroup my thoughts and simply enjoy a day and a night with the sister!

Post one when I get back.

Monday, March 09, 2009

A silver lining

Went to the beach today. With the family and Kak Rayne & co. Crap loads of fun. Went for a ride on the swings, haven't done that in a while. Today was probably the first chilled out day by the beach I've had. Made me quite happy.

The past few weeks, I've been going through abit of an emotional rollercoaster. I've learned alot even though the whole experience isn't something I'd like to repeat. Trust is one of the most important things in a relationship with someone [not just the lovey kind, im talking about any kind of relationship - friendships, family]. When I was younger, trusting someone was the easiest thing on the planet, and one day that I was stripped of that privelage. But over the past few years, I've learned that only by trusting someone can you truly experience a relationship. So I started to trust again. It wasn't easy. Not at all. I though though I had finally succeeded in fully trusting the people around me. And just as I was starting to believe that, all the powers in the world combined and proved me wrong.

The pain I felt when that happened was unbelievable. The pain, the anger, the humiliation. It took me days to even absorb that something like this had happened. To think that someone I considered a close friend could do such a thing. Once I had come to terms with it and thought nothing worse could happen, it did. And THIS was the worst thing that could have happened. I was shocked. Someone I had trusted with every little detail of my life, counted on for so long and for so many things, someone so close to my heart. How could you? You're supposed to protect me just like you protected me from so many other things. Things that I really didn't need protecting from. This, THIS I needed you to protect me. And what did you do? The complete opposite. I've never in my life felt so betrayed.

I've missed all my friends back in Melbourne. The routine of going back is now broken. Everytime I think of them it makes me tear a little. Most of all, I miss Aisha. We may not be able to find a solution to any of this but at least her presence would make me feel tons better.

But I have you, dont I? You're always there for me. Through this psychotic turn of events. When my mood swings go into full gear. You've always been there to hold me, to listen to me go on and on about how idiotic all of this is, how fucked up everything is. You care and love me like nothing I've ever felt before. You make me feel safe. Even when I'm mad at you, I crave you. Just to sit in your arms. To feel for a moment that everything is right in the world. That's what you do. Because I don't think I say it enough, I love you.

I've found a silver lining haven't I?