First month of the year...

HAPPY NEW YEARS all...
Once again, this update is well overdued! I have been excessively busy. I dont actually know with what. Things just keeping me busy...friends, family.

Lets start with December 2007: -

Most people were back by then which was VERY NICE! Met up with a few friends who I havent seen since graduation. Had a bad experience at Chandelier but now we have all learnt our lessons. Spent alot of time with Duncan coz he's only back for a very short time. Went to the beach at ngiht ALOT! Now he's gone back to Perth and I miss him SOOO much! Dunc, u better be hauling your ass back here by the end of this month!

Memorable moment of the last month of the year: meeting those amazing people with whom I am now good friends. We went on a mission to set up 2 friends. Our mutual friend set up a time for us all to meet each other. We went to Shu, had some dinner, some shisha..then headed off to the beach for a little chillout sesh. For the next couple of weeks, we literally went out every other day. Introduced to some VERY nice shisha places...CITYPORTT!!! They're all amazing people, my new friends. On one of nights out, a couple of my high school friends came along. One of them was quite shocked to realise that we'd all only known each other for 5 days. It really doesnt seem like that. I feel like I've known them for a VERY long time. We all get along very well masha'allah! They're all very chilled out. Cowkies and I are also learning alot more about the culture and the ways of the people..mostly the guys..of the country that we've basically grown up in.



Cowkies n i went off to RAK for a part beaching trip. Dads had a golf game, so we went with my mummy and Mak Biah to explore. Found the beach... VERYYY nice! but damn effin cold! so dint actually get to tan. BUT did get some piccies..Also, had a bbq with fam at home and a steamboat dinner. Went to the x-games with nooners, my hot white chick and co.

*Cowkies n i - RAK beach*

*nooners n i*

*at football match - rams, naim, afiqah, cowkies n i*

January is on its way....

so far...

Here's the update so far...
Still totally jetlagged, and on Melbourne time. I've been sleeping at 9pm and waking up at 5 or 6. Not the greatest thing in the world. Yesterday I managed to stay up until 12midnight. GO ME! Got back. Didnt sleep till the nighttime..trying to force my body into adjusting..obviously didn't work. Went to surprise Cowkies (she thought I was only getting back in two weeks), she basically jumped on me and was screaming her head off. Hehe. It's nice to know I was missed and am still loved.

The next couple of days..just chilled with the rents.

Yesterday, went to MOE to watch a movie with N and W. N had to leave, so W and I stayed back and talked. We still couldn't believe that we were sitting across from each other and within touching distance. Talked and had coffee for 2 hours or so. Then dropped me off at home. It was sooo AMAZING seeing N and W. Missed them!!!

THis morning, took a walk along the beach with mum. SO nice to see the beach again. So blue and clear. Walked by the water..sooo cooling when I got splashed. Can't wait to chill there properly. Drove home and planted a few of the plants we bought...to put on the balcony. Now its all pimped out. LOL.

Plan for today: May go and have a chillout sesh with Cowkies if not will go chill with rents outside somewhere.

OVer and out.

Home....

The time has finally come..I arrived back in Dubai today at 5:30am. After a gruelling 14 hours on a plane and a 2 hour layover...the plane landed and my excitement climaxed. It hadn't really sunk in that I was returning home after so long..but once I saw the lights, it was hard not to squeal with happiness (that might've gotten a number of reactions from the people around me).

Reached my parents and literally jumped them. It was amazing to see them again. Got home. Jumped on my sisters while they were sleeping. Thank god no one got a heart attack. Went for breakfast and now sitting waiting for dinner...to surprise a special person who got a little pissed yesterday night especially after hearing I was only going to be back in two weeks. Oh, the love.

The last couple of days at uni were amazing but sad too. After the first one left, they started dropping like flies; with the last having the most effect on me. To that certain someone: though it was short, it was the best. You reminded me of my life before uni, of my friends, of the closeness between friends that I was used to but was deprived of at uni. Thank you for giving me the best months of the end of my first year. I'll miss you.

The last night I spent with a group of people at uni turned out to be quite amazing. Was very happy at the end of the night. For those leaving us this sem: - I'll miss you. For the rest of you: - here's to a great 2008!!

Brett, Alya n I

Mike n I

Dean and I

Having a 'kit kat'

Today it all starts, the mid-sem break. Not that great. Waiting for phone calls is frustrating and depressing. I want it to ring but I don't at the same time. Curiosity is willing it to ring, but dread boils up inside me at the news that the call may bring. All my things are packed ready to leave at any moment. Going to my aunt's soon and the waiting shall continue there.

Confusion

one more day and its mid-semester break. God knows some of us need this. but the joy is short-lived..assignments due soon after our return and not to forget the impending finals. those always make a break seem sooo fulfilling.

wat do we do when there are things in life we can't decide upon? if the ability to make decisions fail us? do we take the easy out? wat do we do in a situation where we have to be the bad guy even agaisnt our will?

we wait it out. isn't that the cowardly way? so am i mean to be the bad guy? i dont want to be that person. but it seems i have no choice. you've left me with no chice. don't you see this can't go anywhere. i love you always but this can't happen. not again. i can't let my heart be broken again. the promises you speak have almost no meaning to me. i've heard them before, and they've failed me before.

how do i fix this? i need to know...it can't go on like this forever